The hardest part about writing down what I’m thinking is coming up with a title. I’m pretty sure WordPress requires a post title before publishing. This brings me back to the days of designing crazy layouts on pitas. I always just used the date for my post titles then. But anyway – avast ye, make way for a boring post.

Right now, I’m not sure if I’m in a good patch in my life, or not. I’ve probably thought more about myself and the world in general in the past 4 months than I have in my entire life. I’ve been slowly trying to teach myself how to deal with situations that I have little to no control over, and it is pretty difficult. I remember back when I was younger, I cared so much what people thought about me and I really wanted to be recognized for something – anything. Now, I don’t even care, but my life at this point does feel like a waiting room. I have, hopefully, about a year and a half left of school. The idea of not finding a job right after school terrifies me because I want to be stable. I don’t want to end up living with one of my parents and working a dead end job like everyone else I know. I want to be able to live the life I’ve always wanted to since I was young. Not finding a job is a very real possibility, but I’m trying my best so that this doesn’t happen. One of the qualities that I like about myself is that I’m extremely independent; it’s done more good than harm, for the most part, so I don’t see it as a bad thing anymore. I’ve recognized that I’ve lived about a quarter of my life (or so I hope) and I really want to do as much as I can with the amount of time I have. I think this idea is due in part on why I’ve wanted to take so many risks over the past few months. I don’t think I’ve made enough mistakes in my life and the ones that I have, I’ve learned from greatly.

I am pretty excited about Moogfest, though. The lineup hasn’t been fully announced yet, but I really hope a lot of good artists will be there – ones I actually listen to. I also hope that tickets aren’t expensive; I’m sure a lot of free shit will be given out and I love free shit. I’m going to see the Crystal Method live next weekend and I’ve not listened to them since I was in middle school. Their past couple of albums have just not been that good, but from what I hear, their shows these days are amazing so I’m really looking forward to going.

I’m also going to buy myself an iMac.

Chillax. I’ll still use my ThinkPad, but things have gotten to a point where using Linux has not grown past anything but a great OS for a server, and if I dare say, a novelty on the desktop (or laptop in this case). Don’t get me wrong, I love Linux to death. I’ve been using it since 2001. I started out with RedHat and moved from it to Mandrake, to Fedora, to Slackware, to Debian in 2006. I can build a custom kernel, patches or not, like something fierce. Frankly, I’m tired of how capricious it is. I’ve used a myriad of distros, and while some are better than others, they all essentially work the same. I’m tired of using VirtualBox to perform tasks in Windows that can easily be done in OS X that cannot be done in Linux. OpenOffice sucks and I have to use Microsoft Office. Gimp feels like a bucket of rusty nuts and bolts. There are no seriously good audio players – they’re all either too slow, terrible at managing playlists, ugly, or defective in some other way. I’m tired of using drivers that just cut the mustard. More is needed than just the minimum in functionality. There are other reasons as to why I no longer feel like dealing with Linux on a daily basis anymore, although they are trivial, but they’ve piled up over the years. I’ll still try to work with it on my server, but for now, I’m going to have to switch over to OS X come mid-August. Yeah, I know I’m a heretic. My 18 year old self would carve it into my arm.

I do start school again in 3 weeks. I couldn’t be happier.

I was able to go out today. :S I got every bit of my school work done last night so that I wouldn’t have to worry about any of it today, or for the rest of the week.

I’ve been looking forever for these:

and finally found them. :D I also found these little candy tins shaped and designed like an NES controller. They looked pretty dorky, but I liked them anyway. I went looking for new shirts today in the mall and found some flannels that I really like, but stores never seem to carry shirts I like in a size small. I’ll have to go back some time this week and see if there are any in stock. I also ordered a new battery for my ThinkPad last night. It’s not had a battery in over 2 years and I’m wishing more and more that I had one so I just bit the bullet (well, my wallet) and plunked down $50 for one from a seller on Amazon. That’s pretty good considering Lenovo directly sells them for $200. Hm. I found some flip-flops at Wal-Mart for $2 a pair (is that even a bargain?); I’ve needed some badly and I’m hoping that for that price, they don’t contain some sort of chemical that makes my feet rot off.

So, I have no more plans for the day. :( But. I think I will just sit on my ass and watch D. Gray-Man episodes and read more out of River of Gods. I should be reading Jude the Obscure for class, though. Oh well. I might look for a new theme for this site. Actually, I was recommended that I listen to Passion Pit, so I’ll get around to doing that. My goal for this week is to look for a cigar shop. I dream pretty big. It’s too bad Charlotte doesn’t have any hookah bars. :/

After a night of sifting through hundreds of lines of PHP, cleaning up careless CSS mistakes, and eating a bowl of burned rice, I have a bad case of heartburn. Oh look, WordPress 2.7.1 is out.